â€œWant toâ€ vs â€œMustâ€, which path to take? External and self-imposed demands, appearances, the â€œwhat-will-they-sayâ€, goals, career, competition â€¦ they were entrapping me like roots into the soil until I realized there were two ME conflicting on my inside and started to wonder: why do I do what I do? Is this what I want to do for the rest of my life? Am I defined by my actions? It is not my intention in this introspective work to answer these questions but rather encourage the reflection. These images were made from pictures taken in EpecuÃ©n, a whole town flooded, which story not only shake me profoundly but also entwined with my life at the time: collapsed and overflowed by the pressures and fears. I utilize the self-portraiture as means of approximation with the observer.